Baling batu sembunyi tangan...

Bodohnya kau wahai manusia celaka... berani buat tak berani tanggung... dah buat salah dan ditangkap dengan bukti, masih tidak mengaku...

Tapi, alhamdulillah... kebenaran sentiasa di pihak yang benar... Apa kau dapat sekarang? Sakit tak kena hempap dengan squash zombie?

Semoga engkau semua insaf and back off from my life ok... Aku tak pernah kacau korang, memang sejak awal lagi engkau anak beranak lah yg selalu mengacau hidup aku... dan engkau ingat aku akan melarat tidur bawah pokok pisang selepas apa yg engkau dah buat?

Sekarang siapa yg tidur bawah pokok pisang?

Get lost forever!!!

When does it end...

So much is going on in my life right now... So much negativity...

Sometimes I feel like running from it all... just drop everything and leave... but the question is where to... I'm too old to be running away from problems... too old to be chasing rainbows...

Maybe God never meant for me to be happy, that's why happiness (if any) never lasts for more than a few moments in my life...

Am I trying too hard or don't I put enough effort?

I used to be a believer in the law of averages... but somehow now I'm beginning to wonder... does the law apply to my life at all...

Crying does not help anymore... tears used to be able to wash some of the pain... but now no more... after the tears all dried up, the pain is still there, in fact the hurt even burns more than before...

Who do I turn to in times like this? When the silence of the night becomes so loud, it deafens my ears... when the cold night embraces me, it cuts so deep, it hurts me even more than I ever thought it possibly could...

When will this end? when does it stop hurting... when will my heart become whole again... when will the pain and sorrow go away... when...

One of my late mom's many favourite songs...

tiada benih yang kusemai

tiada musim yang kutunggu

tiada kasih yang kubelai yang aku rindu

tiada embun yang kan gugur

penyubur jiwa kering tandus

tiada  kasih untuk pelebur jiwa kabus

berkali sudah air datang merubah pasir

namun pantai tetap jua kan berlumut

keringlah sudah kini airmata mengalir

namun sampah yang di mata tak jua hanyut...

hanyalah ini doa ikhlas

mereda sendu dan tangisan

bahtera kasih ku terkandas di tepian....

bagaimana.....

Seribu kali sayang...

Beribu sesalanku...

Sia-siaku mencintaimu

Setia padamu

Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku

Retak hatiku

Luka jiwaku

Dihiris pilu....

Beribu sesalanku...

Peristiwa Semalam...

A friend gave me the link... Thanks Sab...

Peristiwa Semalam

These are lyrics of a song by Uji Rashid... If anyone have it in MP3, please email to me, or u r my FB friend, please link it to me... Thank you...

Sebelum terpejam mata,apa salahnya
Kau bahagiakan hidupku,
Tiada gunanya kau menyesali,
Penderitaan diakhir hayat.

Andainya kau ada yang lain,dalam hidupmu,
Tak perlu kau mencari aku,
Pergilah dan teruskan bersamanya,
Biarku sendiri membawa hati.

Lemahku rasa langkah ku ini,
Meneruskan hidup yang lesu,
Hingga menistis airmata,
Dimana janji setiamu,
Yang kau lafazkan dulu,
Pendihnya ku tersiksa,
Di perdayakan oleh cintamu,

Peristiwa ku semalam, sukarku lupakan
Lukanya terpahat dihati,
Dikala aku sepi kerinduan,
Biarku menangis sendiri.

Past, present and future

"I cannot erase my past...

But if you keep using my past to justify everything that you do in the present

then I think it is best for us to forget about our future together"...

Dunia ibarat air laut...

‎'Dunia ibarat air laut,
diminum hanya menambah haus,
nafsu bagai fatarmogana,
di padang pasir,
panas yang membahang disangka air,
dunia dan nafsu bagai bayang-bayang,
dilihat ada ditangkap hilang.
Tuhan leraikan dunia,
yang mendiam di dalam hatiku,
kerana di situ tidak ku mampu,
mengumpul cinta dunia....

Mintalah hati yang baru..

Kata Iman Ghazali:

"Carilah hatimu di 3 tempat. Cari hatimu sewaktu membaca al-quran. Jika tidak kau temui, carilah hatimu ketika mengerjakan solat. Jika tidak kau temui,juga carilah hatimu ketika kau duduk bertafakur mengingati mati. Jika tidak kau temui juga, maka berdoalah kepada ALLAH, mintalah hati yang baru kerana hakikatnya pada masa itu kau tidak lagi mempunyai hati."

kisah janji dimungkiri... lagi....

beribu sesalanku.....

Belated raya post

 1 Syawal (30 Aug 2011) di Pagoh... with my bodyguards...

Blue raya this year... nasib baik tak "Raya Blues"... 

With my favourite daughter... Eh, memanglah favourite... she's my only daughter... :-)

3 Syawal, at my sister's house in Selayang... with 2 of my sisters (1 other sister is in Kedah) and 1 of my brothers (another 2 in Ipoh and Kuching) and his wife...

My daughter and her female cousins... wish I could have all my nieces (to include the ones in Kuching and Kedah) in this photo....

1 Syawal (photos were not arranged chronologically...)

Here's Muaz with his atuk Tina (my MIL). Many people say that my MIL's name is more modern than my kids's names... Hahaha... BTW, my daughter is named after her sister, Munirah....

Muaz was born prematurely (actually all my kids were born prematurely at 7 months)... and it was the first time that my MIL had a premature grandchild, and she was so amazed by the size of Muaz (at birth).. He weighed a mere 1.86kg... and because of that every time we balik kg, my MIL would first hug and kiss Muaz and say "oh cucu aku... sayangnya... kalau aku ingat masa kau lahir dulu, aku tak sangka kau boleh hidup and jadi besar macam ni..." hahaha... but she never says that to my other kids, padahal the other four pun weighed less than 2 kg at birth, Nabil being the smallest... 1.6kg....

MJ and his mom

Berdrama di pagi raya... hahaha...

 

Mia and my brother's youngest daughter Eisya Humaira... people say Eisya looks more like me than her own mother... hahaha... jangan marah Haizan (Eisya's mom, my SIL)...

My sons and nephews... 5 nephews are not in here... 2 in Perak and 3 in Kedah... InsyaAllah we have a mega reunion end of this year when my brother from Kuching comes back for a holiday...

 

I can't resist to include this photo as well... taken with old friends from secondary school recently at raya open house of one of them... MJ did not join me at this reunion, so I sent this photo to him via BBM... he said "the middle one looks like my old girlfriend"... :-)

Happy birthday to me

I turned yet another year older last 16th August 2011. But I'm too depressed to write about it... Here's the photo of the cake that thr kids (and their daddy) bought for me... Sinfully delicious... Thanks Abg (for paying for the cake) and Mia (for choosing it)... :-)

Forgive and forget? Nah....

I tried to forgive them, but I just cant find it in my heart to do that. They have caused so much grievances and hardship in my kids' life and mine too. Even in the holy month of Ramadhan where Muslims should forgive and forget, I still cannot bring myself to forgive them and forget... The more I try to forgive them the more I feel that I hate them, in fact mere mention of their names would easily trigger a mood swing for me...

My eldest boy gave me a good advice... Mummy, if you hate them, that means you are acknowledging their existence. You should just learn to feel indifferent towards them, do not give them any credit by having a feeling towards them, albeit a negative feeling... Smart boy, isn't he? Many zillions times smarter than them...

Oh well... This year's Ramadhan resolution for me should be changed.... Instead of trying to forgive and forget them... I'll just try to ignore their existence... maybe this is easier...

My babies...

Introducing my 3 little babies... from left: George, Tarzan and Hercules. Born on 12 May 2011. Parents' name: Jojo and Kiki. Breed: Unknwon. My favourite is Hercules.

An eventful train ride... :)

I had to go to our KL branch today to audit (internal audit) a program which will be audited by MQA next week. The office is at KL Central, so KTM Komuter is a very convenient way to go there. Plus I dont like driving there because of the spiral parking... I once scraped the bumper of my Toyota while driving up the spiral parking... Urgh... That was the only one time that I drove to that office...

I was caught in the morning rush... that's no surprise because I had to catch the train latest by 8am in order to reach KL Central before 9am... and I'm not complaining either as I've done that many times before this, either to attend meetings, audit or to attend my PhD classes which were held at our KL centre before the main Shah Alam campus was open.

But the train ride today was a bit eventful as I sort of created a 'scene'... unintentionally though.. it was very spontaneous...

I was lucky, despite the morning rush hour, I manged to get a seat 2 stations after I boarded the train. And the seat was the long seat along the window and I was sitting at the very end. There was a couple standing next to me, they couldnt be more than 20 years old. The guy was hanging to the yellow strap, and the girl was holding to him very tightly... And the backpack, which the guy had on his back kept bumping my head. Of course after some time I got irritated, but still I told them nicely:

"Excuse me, your bag is on my head".

The boy leaned a bit at me (while the girl continued to hug him very tightly) and said "apa dia?" to which I repeated what I said earlier:

"Your bag is on my head".

The boy suddenly said to me with a raised voice... "Cakap Melayu la..."

And guess what happened.... spontaneously, unplanned, without thinking, with a raised voice too, I said to him:

"Oh... Melayu rupanya... ingatkan org putih sebab tak malu dok berpeluk depan org ramai..."

The girl immediately let go of him... and I saw everyone around was looking at me and the couple... OMG... I was thinking... was that me who said that.... Hahahaha....

After that the girl stood jauh sikit from his boyfriend and I just sat there like nothing happened, took out a book from my bag, and read... actually pretended to read... adoi...

The Chinese lady who was sitting next to me just smiled at me... before she got off at one station before I got off, she smiled and said... "Bye, have a nice day"... I just smiled... but laughing hysterically in my heart... hahaha...

Adoi... may be it's about time I gave up riding the train... berasak2 tu really got to me agaknya, that's why tiba2 macam separuh mengamuk tu... malu pun ada, but I'm glad the couple stopped doing what they were doing after I yelled at them... hehe...

So, young couples... beware... if u board the train, and Auntie Hani is on it... dont ever try to create mushy mushy scenes... because I'd create a bigger and more memorable scene for you... :)

Bila gajah dgn gajah berperang...

9th July 2011... Bersih 2.0... What have I got to say about this...

To me... It is clear that the clash was about berebut kuasa... or gila kuasa... Clash between those who are in power and are so afraid of losing their power and those who do not have power and wishing so much to have the power...

Simple... pusing lah kot mana pun... rationalise lah macam mana pun... itu lah hakikatnya...

So, bila gajah dengan gajah berperang, siapa yang jadi mangsa? Sad... so sad...

Belated post for Amin's 17th bday cum Mummy's day

happy father's day

Deadlines oh deadlines... oh boy... I'm dead...

I went back to work today (Monday 13 June 2011) after almost a week break. I took almost a week off just to stay at home and unwind. As the kids get older, it becomes difficult to agree on a holiday spot.The last time I wanted to take them on a holiday (in March to Melaka and April to Trengganu) not all of them went with me. So, this time I just decided to stay home... they can't complain now... in fact they waived their right to complain after they refused to come along with me to Melaka and Trengganu... :-)
 
Masuk je office today, I saw stacks of files on my desk... OMG what have I done... those days off that I took was despite many missing deadlines that were staring into my eyes today. Sitting in my chair felt like being choked today. I didnt know which one should I do first, since all of them are in the category of "do or die"... Mak!!!! help!!! help!!!

Thus... those are the reasons for my mind refusing to shut down tonight, and this entry...

I really need to strategise for tomorrow and the rest of the week to make sure all those deadlines are clear and out of my way by Friday... possible? well... I'll just have to make it possible...

Pray for me please.......

changing focus..

someone wise said, dont think about what u dont have or what u could hv had, instead focus on what u have... 

Malam Jumaat

Malam ni malam Jumaat... 

Hati teringat semua yg telah tiada

Arwah mak, bapak, ende, opah, atuk, embah... dan ramai lagi...

Alfatihah buat mereka

Semoga semuanya ditempatkan bersama org2 yg soleh...

:'(

wicked witches

Beware of the wicked witches of the south

For they always wait for opportunities with open mouth

just like an alligator in a calm stream

they snatch away ur life before u could even scream...

too little too late..

seribu thn kau bersamaku sewaktu ku senang takkan dpt melupuskan sehari yg kau tinggalkan aku sewaktu ku susah..

I'm not a super woman..

I'm not the kind of girl

That u can let down

And think that everything's ok..

Boy I am only human

This girl needs more than occassional hug

As a token of love from u to me....

I'm not kidding

If you think I'm kidding

Think again...

Because I'm serious when I say
Sooner or later you'll be the last thing on my mind...

As the little ones are no longer little
My needs for you have gone down
Not a little but more than a ton...

What more... the not so little ones
Are majority boys to men
Even the only girl won't mind
Because even when she walks down the isle some day
One of her brothers can give her away...

So... trust me when I say
Even right now you are the LAST thing on my mind...

Oh by the way... I'm not just talking about my mind
I'm also telling you that you are also FAR from children's mind...
No, I never taught them to forget you
They got the signal directly from you...

So, all in all
Trust me when I say that I'm not kidding
That sooner than later, you are the LAST thing on my mind... on our minds...

Sooner or later...

Sooner or later i'll be free
To leave the past behind
Sooner or later you're gonna be
The last thing on my mind
Little by little i'm finding out
The truth behind your eyes
Maybe if i don't show
I thought you might like to know
You're gonna be the last thing on my mind

Disappointed...

If you won't be with me in time of my needs, then don't be with me at all...

Translation/Terjemahan:

Jika awak tak ingin bersama saya ketika saya memerlukan, tak payahlah awak bersama saya langsung...

"Kekal" di AF...

Sayang dengarkanlah
Syair kau tulis ku lagukan
Moga jadi siulan
Suatu masa
Dan moga engkau kan tersenyum
Dengan irama indah
Hanya itu
Yang mampu ku beri

Di dalam mimpiku
Syair indah
Yang masih ku baca
Hangus terbakar
Dengan tak ku sangka
Yang ku mimpi
Rupanya terjadi
Punah semuanya

Kesepian kini
Menyusuli hari
Syair nan di rindu
Kau bawa bersama
Tinggallah irama
Terus ku lagukan
Kekal ia bersama
Serpihan harapan kita yang punah

Kita tak menduga
Dari kenalan lahir sayang
Hingga ku terlupa
Kau siapa
Setulus kasih ku kalungkan
Dan selautan sayang
Kau singkirkan
Di persada ramba

I just can't stop humming this song (Kekal... Ziana Zain) since last Saturday night when the song was performed at AF9... it was sung beautifully by Lena, the only AF candidate this year that really has talent... yang lain tu... hm... hampeh... oh, ada one other candidate who also has a bit of a talent in him, Eirul, the Korean fanatic guy... I think he can last till the final, all those girls yg giler kan Korean artists would surely vote for him... I think...

A quick get away...

I went on a 2-day rendezvous on 4th and 5th April... actually it was a business trip, but as usual, I mixed the business with some pleasure...I wish I had time to write about it... but I have so much "homework" to do tonite... So, I'm only sharing the photos... (the photos are not in the order of timing... malas nak susun...).........

We left on Monday 4th April, 6.45am, rainy morning, couldnt even see KLCC...

Genting-Sempah Tunnel...

Stopped for bfst at Temerloh R&R... Akim ni kalau ambik gambar, tak buat muka, tak sah... Hmm...

A Bumiputera Pharmaceutical company where my student did her internship

 Pantai Sura, Dungun... I used to live and work here in 1991-1994... this beach sure brings back a lot of flashbacks... I was overwhelmed by emotion once I layed my eyes on this beach.... I have been back here only once in 2006 for a meeting at the place where I used to work before... but this is the first time for MJ after almost 20 years...

My son, Akim said: Mummy, u mean u used to live here? Why did u move to Shah Alam? This place is gorgeous!!! Mia and Nabil also agreed with him...

Believe me sayanag... I wish I hadn't moved too...

"

 

The hotel we stayed in in Kuala Trengganu... I wanted to stay in Primula but it was fully booked...

View of South China Sea from our room... at sunset...

 Sunrise... well it as almost 7.30am... way after sunrise... I fell asleep waiting for sunrise after subuh to capture it in a photo... When I woke up, it was about 7.30am... 

Jejak kasih 1 - Muaz's baby sitter when he was about 1 year old...

Jejak Kasih 2 - the girl at Pasar Payang (KT) from whom we always bought our batik cloth... she is still there after 20 years... actually it was her who recognised me and MJ... She saw MJ first... she cried out "Abang... buat apa kat sini?..." and then she saw me..."Eh, Kak Ani!!! Dok beghubah langsung... putih melepak macang dulu jugak"... I was "Huh??"... Actually I didnt remember her at first... after a while, baru teringat. She even remembered Muaz... she asked about him... how sweet....

2 horses by the beach of Pantai Batu Buruk... they caught our attention because these horses were not tied and walked freely there... 

Masjid Terapung, Kuala Ibai... we stopped for Asar on our way to KT... 

The 2 photos were taken within a few minutes apart by the same camera, but the scene looked so different.. Hmm....

While waiting to be fetched by my uncle who is now a KT residence...that's Jejak Kasih 3, but forgot to take photos....

Kelantan Football team was also staying in the same hotel... here's Akim with Khairul Fahmi, the goal keeper... the keeper that helped Malaysia championed the Suzuki cup not long time ago... It really made Akim's day because he is a football fanatic fan....

 Akim and Nabil with another player (I dont know his name)

Masjid Kristal...

Jejak Kasih 4 - with an old high school friend... 

Taman Tamadun Islam...

 ..

Jejak Kasih 5 - an ex staff who is now working in Trengganu...

Jejak Kasih 6 - the house I used to live.. looks so run down.. 

Mia - Pantai Batu Buruk...

Masjid Kristal...

Last glimpes of Dungun on our way back...

Good bye Trengganu... till next time...

Letih...

I just had a 7-day working week... and urghhhh... I am so bloody tired... and next week is also a 7-day working week... followed immediately with a 2-day outstation to Trengganu...

I'm not a workaholic, but somehow my work requires me to ACT like one...

Aduh... aduh... duh duh duh duh duh duh... tiba2 terkeluar pulak lagu ni...

Berkorban apa saja... 

demi untuk yang kucinta...

siksa dan derita...

telah kuterima...

tapi aku tak bahagia...

Aduh aduh duh duh duh duh duh duh...

Ahai.... ahai....

One word to describe what/how I feel right now... yup... u guessed it... TIRED @ LETIH...

Are you proud to be a Malaysian now?

People in Africa are fighting for food, medicine and clean water for everyday use, people in middle east are fighting to change their corrupted and undemocratic government, the Libyans are facing death everyday due to attacks by the US troops, the Japanese are still in shock and mourning for their losses after the earth quake and tsunami.. and what are we in Malaysia doing now? Fighting over a scandalous sex video... Adoi... I almost feel ashamed of being a Malaysian right now...

I'm no supporter of any political party... mainly because I am an academician... and academicians are not supposed to talk politics... academicians are just supposed to be propagators of facts and figures and of course with intellectual analysis and synthesis...

But the current political scenario in the country now is just so sordid... so extremely nauseating... that I just feel compelled to write a piece on it... :)

The 8 o'clock news should be now rated 18SX... I am actually embarrassed to watch the news now when the kids are around... my little Nabil actually asked me "Mummy, what is a pelacur?"... how do I answer that... I actually encourage the kids to switch to other channels at 8 o'clock... kalau dulu, dari dlm bilik I dah jerit "Kan ni pukul 8, masa mummy tengok news lah... please switch the channel to TV3"... But now "Nabil nak tengok cerita apa, Nabil tukarlah, tak ape..." Budak tu pun dah confused and asked back "Mummy tak nak tengok news?"


Come to think of it...even an idiot would know... all those politicians from the ruling party tu semua bersih sangat ke? Yes or No DSAI did it, Yes or No he is the man in the video is actually a second issue... what people see... sensible people lah, staunched UMNO supporters would never see this... what people see is the peculiarity in the way the video issue is handled... it is so darn obvious that there is a conspiracy behind it... and the conspirators are so shallow and not so smart (I dont want to say stupid hehe...) that they fail to see the likely repercussion of the issue...

Just before I started writing this entry, I went to the Economist website (which I often do, being an economist myself)... adoi... I'm so shock to find that there is a piece on this issue there...  adoi... malunya... really, right now rasa malunya mengaku diri ni Malaysian di mata dunia...

The busiest 4 days ever... (17 - 20th March 2011)

Banyaknya aku buat benda dalam those span of 4 days... when I look back, macam unbelievable je... 

Those 4 busy days started with a short trip to Melaka and Muar (17 and 18 March 2011)

I had to attend 2 meetings, one on Thursday (17/3) at Pejabat Ketua Menteri Melaka, Menara MITC and the other on Friday (18/3) at TNB Melaka. Since the two dates coincided with school holiday week I thought the kids would be delighted to tag along as they usually did whenever I had to go outstation. But to my surprise the 3 bigger ones said "no, mummy I have my own plans for the holiday", almost in chorus...

Hm... I guess the kids are feeling that they are getting too old to still tag along with mummy whenever mummy goes outstation. Only the two small ones, Aqim and Nabil, who are actually not so small anymore, are still excited to come along whenever mummy steps out of the house...

Sedih jugak, bawa kereta besar, tapi 2 org anak je ikut... but what to do, I have to come at peace with my own feelings... I have to accept the fact that the kids will soon fly the coop and leave me in my empty nest... hwaaaaa... I'm so not looking forward to that...

I only booked a hotel on Tuesday... and didnt really expect that almost all the hotels were fully booked, in fact all the hotels that I called (Philea, Radisson, Equatorial, and a few others) were fully booked. So, when I called this particular not so grand hotel, I quickly reserved a room... adoi... nama je "Grand", tapi tak grand langsung... as the engineer at the MITC (the engineer that I had the meeting with) said, "Hotel tu memang teruk, I rasa dia dah ujud dari zaman Hang Tuah lagi kot..."... Nampak macam serious, tapi pandai pulak buat lawak engineer tu....

Actually I wanted so much to try the new hotel at Ayer Keroh... Philea Resort... tak pe lah, may be next time.

So, the room at Grand Continental was not that bad, we got a room with one single and 1 queen beds, ok lah for the 4 of us... tapi yg tak tahannya... hotel tu bau macam basement, hapak semacam...

But to Aqim and Nabil, the smell, the food, the room size, even the bed dont matter, as long as the hotel has a swimming pool... In fact, while I was checking in at the counter, Aqim asked the receptionist "Where's the swimming pool? Tak nampak pun...". The pool was actually on the roof...

Masuk je bilik, they immediately changed into their swimming attire and ran to the lift again to go up to the roof.. macam anak itik budak dua org ni terjun masuk kolam tu... splash!!!

After my meeting (around 4pm) we went to Taman Buaya (Melaka Crocodile Farm)... the place looked so dull and gloomy, it wasnt as lively and fun as it used to be... I think the last time I went there was more than 15 years ago when Muaz was still 2 or 3 years old. There used to be a bridge, where we could stand on it and watch the crocodiles right below us. The care taker said that the owner of the farm was worried that a child might fall off the bridge and become the crocodiles' free meal and if that happened, the farm would sure be forced to close down by the authority...

There are now miniature replicas of Malaysia's famous buildings and landmarks in the middle of the Taman Buaya... KLCC, KL Tower, Tugu Negara, Penang Bridge, PM Office, Masjid Negara, A Famosa and a few others...

It was quite boring actually, the 2 boys were actually whining... "Mummy, boringnya... let's go somewhere else..." I had to literally force them to stand or sit near the replicas for me to take their photos (even though there was a sign "do not enter" into the fenced area of the replicas)...

We went to board one of the Melaka River Cruise boats after that... and that was fun... we enjoyed the 45 minutes boat ride...

Last thing we did that evening, before we went for dinner, was went on the Revolving Tower of Taming Sari... the ride took only 10 minutes and the ticket price was the same as the ticket for the Melaka River Crusie boat ride (RM10 for adult and RM5 for kids) and it was worth it...

The next day, we checked out early before I went to my meeting at TNB Jalan Banda Kaba at 10 am. After the meeting, we went back to Muar... at first MJ planned to take the state road, but after Semabok, he decided to go through the highway instead... the weather was just too hot for a drive...

We stopped at Semabok (before continuing our way to the PLUS highway) for an early lunch at this restaurant...

The food was delicious... we had asam pedas, masak cili padi pucuk ubi, sambal sotong and pecal... aduuuh sedapnya... betul2 rasa home made, I really recommend this place to anybody who like lauk masakan kampung...

MJ and the owner of the restaurant... he looked so simple, and his restaurant pun nampak biasa je... but MJ said Haji Isenin is actually a millonaire...

I saw this newspaper cutting displayed at the back of the restaurant... MJ told me that Haji Isenin is the father inlaw of the owner of "Fadhilat Herba" who died together with his wife (Haji Isenin's daughter) and 4 children in a car crash 2 years ago... The accident made headlines in newspapers and TV... Haji Isenin claimed that he loaned RM1 million to his late son in law as capital for his company (Fadhilat Herba)...

We left Semabok at around 12pm and reached Pagoh Muar about an hour later...

Later that afternoon, we went to MJ's dusun durian, about 11 km off bound... the journey was really menyeramkan... but the view was breathtaking... but no photo sebab terlampau takut... lalu tepi tebing curam, masuk lumpur, celah pokok kelapa sawit... ada bekas tapak kaki binatang, entah2 harimau...err...

I didnt count how many durian trees were there, tapi memang banyak, and all of them were bearing flowers... in about 2-3 months insyaallah the trees will bear delicious fruits... yummy... cant wait...

I went back to Shah Alam with Nabil and Aqim petang tu jugak... because the 2 boys did not want to miss Raja Lawak Final... and I had my monthly breakfast meet with my breakfast buddies the next day...

My breakfst buddies... from left... Dr Aliza, Shima and Sab... we have been friends since the early 90s...

Later that day, I received a call from MJ that his friend, whom I also knew, passed away in Pattani Thailand. Arwah was once married to MJ's foster parents' daughter. So, that Saturday night, we went to Bangi (where arwah's house was) and stayed until about 1am... by the time we left, jenazah has not yet arrived... We decided to go back and MJ went back there after subuh. I decided not to go with MJ because I Amin, my second son, was going back to his hostel that Sunday.. and I needed to do some shopping for his needs as well as for the other kid's needs as the next Monday schools will be reopened after one week holiday.

That Sunday morning, I went to do grocery shopping alone, and cooked lunch after that.. after lunch, I took Amin shopping, and at around 5pm went to send him back to his hostel...

All those activities in four days... macam tak percaya je.... :)