Survival of the fattest... oops I mean fittest...

I survived another day at the office today... despite hati yg membuak2... I managed to maintain my composure and professionalism...

God knows how my heart is still not settled from what happened last Friday...

I dont know... I never had good luck working for fat people... lol... where did that come from? Yeah, actually I just came with that conclusion just before I fell asleep last night... a childish statement, I know, but I need to have something/someone to blame for what happened... I dont make sense? That's ok, this particular entry is just for me to understand...

Err... btw, this reminds me to start going on a diet... my last check up (last Saturday) showed that my weight now is more than when I was 7 months pregnant... ouch!!

Hopefully by next appointment, which is in 2 months, my weight would be down by at least by 5kg... and someone would kancing gigi when he/she/they look at me... lol...

When the nurse read my weight that day, I remembered someone did call me "fat devil" in her blog not too long ago... hahaha... and at that time I was actually about 10kg less than now (because I just had an operation). Kalau time tu, I was a fat devil, imagine what would she call me if she sees me now :-)

And if u wonder why I laughed when I was called a fat devil... the reason was (and still is) that person's mom was twice my size... hahaha... if I was a fat devil, what would her mom be? An obese angel? hahaha.. obese yes... angel hardly... more like satan worshiper... ooops... well she is... fat and bald and with satanic eyes...not to mention bahasa beracun yg dia selalu cakap kat my little Nabil and Aqim...

Anyway... my entry today is a bit (or a lot?) merapu because as I said above, my heart is still not settled from what happened last Friday... I still feel disappointed, I'm still hurt, I'm still sad, I'm still upset....... hmm...

Kawan makan kawan...

I have officially appointed someone else as my enemy no. 1 now, even above my deceitful MJ. I cant write much about it here, because a number of the people in my office are readers of this blog - my mistake, I once checked my blog at one of the admin staff's PC and forgot to delete the history...

That someone is (was now) actually a friend of mine for more than 10 years. It took me that long to realise her true colours... walaupun ada banyak occasions dia buat benda yg tak sepatutnya dibuat oleh seorang kawan kepada kawannya...

Well... never mind, Allah maha adil dan bijaksana... aku doakan dia akan dapat balasan yg setimpal dengan apa yg telah dia buat...

Kifarah...

‎"Tidaklah seorang muslim tertimpa suatu penyakit dan sejenisnya melainkan Allah akan menggugurkan bersamanya dosa-dosanya seperti pohon yang menggugurkan daun-daunnya" (Hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

Do I look that old... Do I look that young...

Is it true that the crowd that u hang out with influences your appearance or others' perception on ur age?

Let me explain...

This morning, I had breakfast with a couple of frens, Shima and Sab, at the Grand Blue Wave Shah Alam. We have been doing this for may be more than ten years now I think... "We" means me and a few friends, Sabariah, Shima, Aliza and Radziah... and from time to time adalah some other girl friends yg join... and "this" means having breakfast meet about once a month around Shah Alam, either at a restaurant, hotel or each other's house... And I pun sebenarnya tak lah dapat join every month... in fact I think among us, I lah yg selalu ponteng because I used to work on Saturday, and the breakfast meet is normally done on Saturday... but starting this month the organisation that I work for started a trial 6 months period of having a 2-day weekend off... so, hopefully after this I tak lah selalu ponteng lagi ya Sab and Shima (if u two are reading this now)... :)

Anyway, nak ceritanya, something funny happened today after the meet... when we were paying for the breakfast, the cashier asked us "senior citizens ke?"... We looked at each other speechless at first, not knowing what to say... In my heart... "OMG... do I look that old?" But it was Sab who responded first I think, she asked "50 kira senior citizens ke" because Shima just turned 50 a few days ago... And then the cashier explained, "kalau senior citizens, ada 50% discount" and then he must have felt guilty agaknya.. and said "tak pe lah, I give 50% discount jugaklah pada puan"...


Balik rumah I related the incident to my son, and he said... "gila... mana ada mummy nampak tua mcm tu..." but he laughed anyway...

After that we went Carrefour Shah Alam to buy our weekly supply... and this time the cashier, merely a boy who I think is barely 18, may be waiting for his SPM result, called me "kakak"... hahhahaha.. Muaz looked at me and said "see....." lol...

Hahahha... thus why I asked the question at the beginning of this entry... Sab and Shima... jgn marah, I tak kata u two look old, in fact between the 3 of us, I'm the one yg nampak paling tua I think despite the fact that I'm the youngest, in fact I think, physically I ni memang the oldest sebab I yg paling banyak penyakit... :(

I feel so kelakar, within less than 3 hours, I hv been referred to as a senior citizen (by an adult man) and a kakak (by a boy)... which means I have to hang out more with my kids agaknya... hahaha... "Oh no!!!" I think that would be Mia's and Muaz's response... lol...

To operate or not to operate...

I get cold sweat just by looking at these photos...

CTS (Carpal Tunnel Syndrome)

I woke up Sunday morning with such unbearable pain on my left wrist up to fingertips (especially the middle finger) and down to elbow... adoi... felt like current went through my arm... tried to rub minyak angin, minyak urat, minyak serai wangi, minyak cap kapak, minyak geliga, minyak gamat... short of minyak goreng ikan je... satu pun tak effective...

My kids took turn rubbing my hand... MJ too was sympathetic...

I knew something was wrong... that's why I dreaded going to see the dr, but the pain was becoming worse and worse everyday, that I finally drove myself (single-handedly... literally..) to see a dr last Tuesday... and here's the diagnose... Carpal Tunnel Syndrome

Hm... redha je lah... God is testing me again... alhamdulillah... because that means He loves me and He knows that I'm able to face it and live with it...

My dr asked me to go for second opinion and to think about going through a surgery to correct it... I have gone for the second opinion and the diagnose is the same... surgery? I have to think some more...

No, this didnt just happen over night... I've had the symptoms (numbness especially in the morning, feels like current going through it secara tiba2 for no reason, twitching...) for quite some time, I think I've had it for the past 2 or 3 years, but I didnt pay attention to it as I wasnt aware about such disease or condition...

But I notice one thing... one never knows one's potential until one is faced with the situation where "one hand can still do"... haha... I can still drive with one hand... I can still type (slower of course) with one hand... I can still wash dishes with one hand,.. I can still cook with one hand... in fact last night I prepared quite an extensive meal for dinner, with Muaz's and Mia's help of course...

Hm... tapi nasib baik juga lah the hand affected is the left one and I am right-handed... but still... dr warned me about chances of my other good hand catching the same condition, primarily because the early symptoms are already present...

Cuppy cakes for Mia on her 14th birthday... 8 Feb 2011...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to Mia...

Happy birthday to you...